Take a load off

Sisyphean toil

Psalm 55:22, “Give your burdens to the LORD, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall.” (NLT)

Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.” 1 Peter 5:7

The last few days I have felt mentally drained. It seems like a never-ending laundry list of task that I must accomplish. I was starting to get that overwhelming feeling of not holding everything together. My morning devotional was about casting your cares to the Father. After reading it, I decided to write a list of my worries. It started like this: debating on grad school, bills, child-care during the summer, preparing my son for 3rd grade, etc. As I looked at the list, the problems that have been plaguing me seemed small. God whispered to me about writing a similar list but this time about the things I am not worried about. As I started writing about how I feel secure in other areas such as my job, my home stability, my health, my regular meals, my child’s needs, my relationship with Jesus, family life…etc, I realized how the things that truly matter, God has already made provisions.

Sometimes we have to stop and think about the things that really matter. The glass really is half full. God provides soooo much for us but it’s easy to get caught up in the madness and pressures of society. Whether I go to grad school or not, God will still provide. If I have to wait a few weeks before sending Aiden to camp, I know I have loving people in my life that I trust with the safety of my child. If I have to pay small amounts on bills for now, I am blessed abundantly with a job that more than supports me and my child.

Recently, I started to sponsor a child from Compassion International. His name is Godwin and he is from the Togo. We are able to write letters back and forth. Godwin is almost a spitting image of my son. They are the same age and they love soccer, singing, church and reading. My son agreed to do extra chores in order to raise money to ensure we can keep supporting Godwin. I thought it would be a good way to teach selflessness and giving. Well last night we received a letter telling us all about Lome, the town Godwin lives in located in Togo. Only 30% of the children in Lome can go to school. Aiden learned about their community and the hardships they face. As I am trying to instill a sense of gratitude in my child, I see how God is trying to instill a sense of gratitude in me. God always holds up a mirror for me to see myself and that I am a constant work in progress. So I won’t spend this day worried about things I can’t really control right now. Instead I will rest in knowing that I have an omnipresent Father that cares about my needs, whether large or small. I can go to Him with all things and like a good Father does, He will give me what I need according to His perfect will.